Blog Blunder

Well. Here I go again defending myself. Michael had written two blogs yesterday containing some true intimacies. This is fine, but he chose to leave out what I consider the remaining truth. Sometimes the remaining truth isn't necessary, but in this case it upset me a little. He talks about two weeks after make up sex, well make up sex was one week and one day ago. He talks about the recent lack of sex but fails to mention I have a severe back injury. I feel like he is not representing me accurately. Sex is not an issue from which I shy away, but if there is a problem in communication between two people I believe it should be solved between the two of them first.

Yesterday he was telling me about several comments he got on one of his blogs. He said that he got three comments which is the most he's ever had and especially from women. I told him that I was glad for him. He said that the comments were spate's toward me. Naturally I inferred he wanted me to read it. So I did. Michael's blog is fun to read. He writes about stuff in a way that it detailed enough to capture the reader, but not overly dramatic. The problem you see is if he writes about you and it contains a partial truth. It sucks because your left there wondering how many people read this and think this about me? Then worse I have to use my own personal blog to justify myself and clear the air. This makes for a quite whinny and boring blog.

An example of this would be the time Michael was going down on me. He simply wrote I wriggled and he caught a mouthful or orgasming cootchie. I also whacked him in the head with a pillow. The truth is it doesn't take long to please me orally. I like to begin to get off and then like to fuck. He insisted that he stay down there. I didn't want that,but he did, so I tried. It was too much for me. I was yelling fuck me and all kinds of crap, but no he just kept licking. So in a bout of sheer pleasure/frustration I whacked him in the head with a feather pillow. He stopped and we both laughed. You see I think there is a big difference between what I wrote and what he wrote.

Anyway. After I read this I was talking to him about the partial truths. He got very defensive. We were IMing while he was at work. I tried to change the subject and he basically wasn't having it. We got in a huge fight. He came home very late. He started in on me and I lost it. I had been cooking his dinner. I almost broke a plate. When I reached this point I looked at him and told him I couldn't do this right now. We went our separate ways. He tried to talk to me. I just kept crying and thinking how alone I felt, how blown out of proportion this was, and how I am going to go the rest of my life like this. So from now on I am planning not to read Michaels blog, not even when he asks me too. No more blog blunders.

I don't want to live like this but I also don't want to appear in the manner that he is making me. I really hope he doesn't see me as a unloving, uninvolved wife. I rather hope he sees me as a best friend and partner in life.