Argument with Michael...:(

Michael and I are having an argument today. It is the same argument we had on Saturday. It is the only argument Michael and I have consistently. It has been an issue for a long time. At one point in our relationship I was the one who needed to review my stance and change. When Michael and I argue it is like a battle of wits. It's no fun. I don't argue like most people do either. I don't care who's right and whose wrong. I'm not about blame either. I am only interested in solving the problem. Unfortunately sometimes the solution is to agree to disagree.

After dealing with this issue for a while, Saturday I lost it. I tried changing myself, offering up other solutions, going with the flow, ignoring it, and confronting it. None of it has worked. It seems to me that Michael wants what he wants when he wants it. I'm angry about that. I feel like he is not hearing me. The only time he takes note is when I'm so hurt and pissed off I lose it. Of course that didn't work either or we wouldn't be arguing today. So in order to resolve this I am either going to have to do it his way, or no way. I'm not willing to do that. So where does that leave me? I don't know. I have gone above and beyond in changing my thoughts, behaviors, and actions regarding this subject. I can't say the same for him. So how can I get him to hear me? I don't want to give in, but I am ad nauseam with this subject.

I feel like he's being very selfish and unwavering. He just won't compromise. I don't want to argue anymore. I can't just let him push me around though. So how long to I let this go on? How do I resolve it if he's not willing to compromise? We have both made sacrifices personally for one another and for our relationship. Why won't he help resolve this little issue? Why does he even make it an issue?

We were instant messaging this morning and it wasn't good. He was apologizing for essentially throwing a fit last night. I told him I didn't want an apology. I want him to stop throwing a fit. Stop creating an unnecessary problem. He won't or doesn't hear me though. When I fix one part he jumps to another part. I just don't know what to do, but I've had it. I'm hurt, frustrated, angry, and sad. I can't make it over the bar when the bar is located on the moon. WTF?

So I guess I'm just going to see what happens when he gets home. I hope we are both calm and ready to finish this issue off once and for all.